Becoming the person I’ve always wanted to be is scary as hell. But also feels so damn good. I know I want to be one of those people I’ve always admired who take risks, give all they have, break free from social norms, unapologetically live in their own way and love life.
Although these people make it look so natural, I’ve realized that I have to work hard to live in this way. For some, these qualities are more innate and come easily. For me, it’s taken a long time to discover who it is that I really want to be and then take baby steps to get there.
Over the past few years I’ve finally started to make decisions based on who I authentically am and not just following along with the crowd. Most of the things that I’ve done that feel right in my heart have been super challenging and at the same time immensely rewarding.
Taking in our 10-year-old nephew for a year with a new baby was not easy but stretched my heart endlessly. Using our vacation time to volunteer instead of just partying proved to be exhausting but so much more enriching. Moving away from home has been uncomfortable but taught me more about myself than any other thing I’ve done. Quitting my corporate job to start my own business was terrifying but absolutely the right thing for me.
Part of me so badly wants to slow down, stay put, not shake things up. Yet I know that’ll only lead to complacency and boredom and I’ll get antsy. I love a good challenge and as much as it can hurt, I crave personal growth. So I will continue to seek out opportunities to do something exciting, different, new, scary, difficult, helpful and loving.
I’m making a promise to myself to not take the easy route and keep pushing myself to become the person I’ve always dreamed of being. Cause to me, that’s what life is all about!
I’d love to hear from you! How have you pushed yourself outside of your comfort zone? What resulted from your actions? Who are you in the process of becoming?